Taking the plunge

The last 2 days have been a little rough in coming to terms with the possibility of suffering from PPD. I'm going though so many emotions.....I feel like I'm on a roller coster that goes from 0-60 mph in 3 seconds..I want off!

I finally caved (trying desperately to fight back the tears) and told my husband what I have been going

through lately and the signs I have been experiencing. He was nothing but supportive.....the emotional level that has been lacking in our relationship seemed to come back 10 fold and I REALLY needed it.

I finally took the plunge and I am reaching out...making it public that "No, I am NOT ok" I need support....my 2nd plunge that made it real was sending my Dr. an email with my concerns...waiting on a reply to see what the next step is from here.

I'm already feeling the relief.

Cute little story about my first born...I picked him up from school yesterday and I told him we had to go to the police department to pick up a police report for the identity theft (I'm the victim) and he told me that when he grows up he wants to be a police officer and a grocery store helper. I asked him what a grocery store helper was and he replied "a person that gives people food"...oh my gosh how cute is my lil dude?

Yesterday was the "official" day of my lil KoKo Chum Chum crawling.....look out here comes

T-R-O-U-B-L-E!

Jumping in with one foot

Blogging... who me? Never ever did I think that lil o'l me would tamper in the life of blogging...but what the hay..everyone is doing it..... right? I'm REALLY needing an outlet right now..... I have a feeling that I'm battling a bit of PPD. I'm not really good at expressing myself through writing but if I use this as a tool to write about my days then... maybe this will be a new hobby and the bouts of what I'm thinking is PPD will go away! I need distraction (more or less down time) from my everyday life of being a Mom and Wife. This is definitely out of my comfort zone...I never tend to jump into unfamiliar tasks with both feet...I test the waters toe by toe....so, with that being said..this is a BIG deal for me. Today I am not going to talk about why I think I'm battling PPD because I'm still trying to figure this feeling out. I know that I don't like it...I'm uncomfortable in my own skin and I'm angry as hell about it because I don't feel like I'm in control. Lets just say for today....I'm dealing and taking it for what it is day by day. Instead I want to focus on the positive for today. I love love love taking pictures and of course all my pictures are mostly of my 2 boys. Photography to me is starting to become a passion. I'm definitely an amateur who is learning about photography everyday.My children are my best models.